Trying desperately hard to achieve, but causing so much pain
Imprisoned by self-obligations, physically and mentally drained
Taunted and teased to the point of despair, no intention to be unfair,
Selfish or awkward, they are my obsessions so clearly I do not care
Just knowing it will not be good enough, whatever you give
Questions the meaning of life when you no longer want to live
You break and you cry, whilst I am just an emotionless wreck

I can see I am hurting you but I cannot feel why only shame
Envying your beautiful tears and wishing I could cry the same
To reassure you, but my bottle is broken, I have not cried for years
Anaesthetised from the world, insecure listening to your fears
Pouring your heart out, bleeding, pleading to become numb like me

If you would only look closer, my heart is solely yours do you not see
My love for you is so much truer than from anyone else, it could be

I am clearly no poet, but I do feel using it as a guide can help add some structure to writing particularly when really struggling to express yourself like I am today. This piece focuses on struggles in a relationship when one suffers from Aspergers and can see pain and emotion but not feel and understand it. However, everybody is unique.

2 thoughts on “The Struggles of Love

  1. Yes me too, I’ve been waiting for 6 years for Doors of Stone. I expect we will see the TV series first, just hope it doesn’t take over like A Song of Ice & Fire. At least there are so many other fantastic books out there to read.

    I’m really glad my attempted poetry has been liked and appreciated. Some things are really not easy to put into words, I found writing in this way helped me to consider my words and thoughts more carefully. It cannot be easy from either side and life will never be straightforward. But reading the insight of others at least can help to feel some normality and less isolated.

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  2. I really liked your poem. It is very insightful. The Asperger’s relationship is an issue I have spent a lot of time reading about as I learn about Asperger’s and Autism Spectrum Disorders. It was really great to read your words and feel a bit of what it is like on the inside. Thank you for sharing. I like your quote by Patrick Rothfuss, too. I am a Kingkiller Chronicles fan – really excited for the 3rd book to come out.

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